Little M: Mummy, do ‘ummies make you feel better? I got lots.

Remember how me and Siri don’t get on? Well the other day, while I could still drive, I needed to ask Mr TOPP to pick me up a bottle of water from the shop (that I knew he was going to anyway, I’m not that lazy). I tried phoning, but he didn’t answer, so I [...]

Monday was always going to be a tricky day. It was exactly a month since my mum died. But is was also Little M’s birthday. There was no way I could not think of mum, but I knew she would be telling me to make sure Little M had a great day. So that was [...]

Today my baby has declared herself a “Big Girl” and is a whopping three years old. How did that happen? I’m pretty certain we’ve only just brought her home from hospital. Last night we had a chat about birthdays and stuff. Me: So, Little M, how old are you today? Little M: TWO! Me: And [...]

Little M: tucking into her second bowl of Cheerios When I finished deeze please I have some weetabix? ******** Big M: *BURP* Me: That was revolting. What do you say? Big M: It was Little M.

Today I went back to work. Last week I had had some space to think, to cry, to try and get my head around what has happened. I thought I was ready. I am ready. Except Driving to school this morning I got a bit emotional. It all felt so normal. But life isn’t normal anymore. [...]

Big M: I wish I could be quiet like Little M. ******* Cousin E: Look, there’s a picture of our Granny. Big M: I know. I wish she was still real.

Ordinarily, when stuff happens, this is where I come. Writing helps me work out how the world works and how I feel about it all. When mum was first ill, she asked me not to put anything out in the public domain. She had (has) a huge number of followers on twitter and I don’t [...]